30.5.09

In a blink of an eye

   Having a lovely, peaceful dinner in a home-y restaurant, can you tell what happened next?


You sure won't be able to make a wild guess in a million years. This photo was taken last year. A normal early dinner with good family friends. We share spontaneous laughs and funny stories with no idea - feeling - thought of what sad news is about to be heard. After this dinner, several moments later, she received a phone call...
ran straight to her car by the parking lot, and broke down to cry. 


My lola is gone.


I saw the sadness in her eyes.
At some point, I know how that first feeling went.
I felt the exact severe and overwhelming grief that she had when she answered that call. This happened last year. But I can still clearly recall how it had happened. This makes my heart ache so bad that I want to cry, too. However, this doesn't make me less of a person. It only makes us stronger. This kind of tribulation is to let us know that losing a family member has the only right to scar our hearts deeply and not just some stupid person struggling to tear us apart. 


I only cry when I think of you.
I remember all my memories of you.
If I could ask our Creator one question,
"Sometimes, does he think of me, too?"

2 comments:

  1. Actually the last few words here are for him, but the whole blog is mostly about my grandma

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